its about 2:30am, and im sitting in bed wide awake.
today was difficult at times.
i attended the funeral of the sister of a good friend of mine. although i did not know her very well, i do feel connected to her and her family. i was reminded of how short this life can be, and that a natural sense of urgency is a healthy way to live this life.
after the funeral, i just seemed out of sorts all day. nothing really seemed to flow easily. i attempted to create a new blog for the studio singers of long beach city college. i tried to post photos i found on line, but each photo proved to be too low in resolution for the blog. i then attempted to get photos from other members i know, but they were understandably too busy to deal with me at the moment or i was a “weirdo” and couldnt get the photos i wanted at the time. i decided to let it go for the day, and will return to it some time over the next few days. i intend to have this blog up and running by the end of next week. if youd like to see the little bit thats been done so far, please click here.
i then made my way to the grand opening of a new surf shop in my hood called Shelter Surf Shop. it was a trip. we all watched the movie “Invasion From Planet C” which l would best describe as one of the strangest surf movies ive ever seen. i have photos that ill post later.
i went home and had some quiet time. i realize that im dealing with some third chakra energy issues. in my meditations, ive had new desires that are louder than ever. strange to me, since i attempt to live my life with out desires……..or, at least see them for what they are…still, i feel my inner voice is telling me certain things that ive either ignored or not listened to in the past.
so heres what ive heard recently: id like to create a singing partner. a female voice. someone who likes to sing as much as i do. someone who will perform duets with me. someone who i could assist, and who could assist me as well. its strange because i sing in various vocal groups at school, yet i have not been able to find that one person. i guess its all about timing. i trust this person will come to me, and ill be posting our recordings on this blog soon. maybe that is why im writing about it now. you know, the power of intention, the written word, the proclaimed affirmation, genuine prayer, etc?
but for now, i hear songs in my head that have a female voice and my voice. im not sure why this person hasnt been created in my life yet. maybe its because i stink, and my voice sucks? i trust.
as i stated earlier, i do feel a sense of urgency.
…and at the same time i cant help but see the perfection in all of it.